A 2nd chance...

Lamonte and I are finally on the same page when it comes to our daughter. It feels so good to be able to get along and talk like adults. Too bad it’s taken this long for us to get here. As I responded to his letter last night there was a smile on my face and a big sigh of relief. We spend more effort fighting and arguing over petty things than discussing what’s important – Makenna…. so to finally have a normal conversation was nice. He is really making an effort to be in her life. Right now with him being incarcerated it’s hard for him but he tries to write at least once a week. I’ve been saving all of his letters so that she’ll have them someday if she feels like reading them. So many people in my life are skeptical as to whether this will last once he gets out and to those I have to say this…


All I can do is allow him to try to have a relationship with her. I will pray for the best but always expect the worst. I have to keep my guard up based on his track record but that doesn’t mean I should be a total bitch to him 24/7. Our relationship problems should not affect the friendship we have today. Yes I said friendship. We’ve both agreed that the best thing for Makenna is for us to work on actually being friends. Why not? We were best friends at one point and we probably know each other better than anyone else. I am nervous that he will fall back into his same old patterns but I’ve expressed that to him and he knows that my guard will remain up. As long as he’s willing to accept that and keep trying to prove himself all I can do is try to go about things with an open mind and heart. Makenna is the most important thing in the world and if having her daddy around is what she needs I’m all for it. BUT….the moment he screws up….no more chances. So let’s cross our fingers that this works. He even mentioned possibly moving closer to see her more often. I was very shocked but if he did decide to move that would definitely show he was actually serious about being a big part of her life. His newest thing was coming up with a nickname for her. Mac n’ Cheese. I know I know….strange but then again this is Lamonte. He called me strawberry so apparently has a thing for food. Haha

Time to protect my blogs...

So it's become apparent that I have to keep things private now.  I deleted my myspace, blocked certain people from Facebook and now I guess I'll have to put a password protector on my blog.  So...if you're reading this now and you want to continue to have access please email me at tprice83@yahoo.com with your email address and I will make sure to send you the new password.  I should be locking this within the week.  I'm sick of a certain person using any information they can find online about me to help with their own insecurities.  I'm too old to play games and feed in to the unnecessary drama so I'm stopping it all together.  Basically if there is nothing to read you will hopefully go away and move on with your life.  Or not, either way it won't affect me anymore.